hah.
the 1st lesson was damn kok.
okay.
i think the prob was tt the class was too big to actually learn the skills, not to mention tt the area tt was given to learn was damn small!
the whole pool is damn big, yet we only have got 1 lane for lesson with so many ppl!
sigh.
like it wasn't bad tt enuff tt no one was accompanying me in the 1st place, we have like 20 over guys and 8 girls.
aiya.
talk abt kok.
hmm.
i guess it might be good if i dropped it, since i think i'm damn stressed over the readings that have to be done for my modules as well as the jap lang i have to practise constantly.
and when i mean stressed, i mean study till i'm tearing.
hai.
and sch juz started.
=(
i think it's really getting to me now.
i had high hopes of uni before it started.
but it didn't turned out the way i thought it would be.
"the higher the hopes you have, the harder you fall"
how true.
expectations arh expectations.
i think i'll need to force myself to stand from ground zero to get myself back onto the right track.
and i need to rely less on my cousin.
everytime i need help, the 1st person i think of is si.
bad habit arh bad habit.
this reliance will be my undoing.
i need to learn to do my own stuff, make my own decisions and think for myself.
si can't save me everything when i need help.
sigh.
this is like a repeat episode of what happened in the transition period from sec sch to jc, except much worse.
my emotions are running haywired again.
i'm feeling damn crappy and depressed.
please don't make it any worse.
